I used to wake up reaching for the other side of the bed Now I wake up still, but I don't reach ahead I used to plan my weekends around when you were free Now I plan them around nothing
And nothing's fine with me But don't mistake my quiet For giving up the fight I've just learned it ain't my fire
Where it's warm instead of bright I will not pay you to stay I will not drink you away I will not call when the moon is high
Just to hear a lie I will not wait by the phone I will learn to be alone But when the right one comes around
I will not look down I will hold the door I will try once more, I will My father asked me lately, son, you seeing anyone?
I said I'm seeing clearer now than when I was young He didn't push, just nodded So it took me years to learn That love ain't about the burning It's about what you don't burn So I'm keeping all my matches
For a fire that won't fade And I'm not running from the dark I'm just not afraid to wait I will not beg you to stay I will not drink you away I will not call when the moon is high
Just to hear a lie I will not wait by the phone I will learn to be alone But when the right one comes around
I will not look down I will hold the door I will try once more, I will I will show up early, I will bring the wine
I will tell the truth even when it's not the perfect line I will stay when it gets quiet I will not run when it gets real I will say I love you first
And mean it when I feel So no, I don't have answers I don't have a plan I just have this quiet knowing
That I'll stand up when I can I will not break my own heart Chasing what was never there I will just keep walking
With my hands out in the air I will Ceiling fan keeps spinning round I'm just staring at it now
No tears left to hit the ground I think I ran out Used to feel it in my chest Now there's nothing but the rest
Of a love that I undressed and left on the floor I don't even know what I'm waiting for Maybe just to not feel anymore I'm too tired to cry
Too empty to try My hands won't even shake My heart won't even break It already did
A thousand times Now I'm just too tired Too tired to cry Your last text is still unread I can't bring myself to read it yet
Maybe I already know what it said Or maybe I don't I used to replay every word Now my mind is just a blur The only sound I've heard is the fan above I don't even know what I'm holding for
Maybe just to not feel anymore I'm too tired to cry Too empty to try My hands won't even shake
My heart won't even break It already did A thousand times, now I'm just too tired Too tired to cry
They say time heals everything, but time is moving so slow I'm not even sad anymore I just don't wanna know If you're happy, if you moved on I don't have the strength to be strong So I'll stay here on this floor Till I'm not tired anymore
But tonight, I'm just too tired to cry To cry We met outside the station, you asked me for the time I said it's almost midnight, you laughed and said nice try
We walked along the river The city held its breath You talked about your family I tried