Pretty Was Never the Plot — Episode 1

Of course I know I'm fat. A zipper that won't close, a shuttle bus seatbelt that won't latch, thighs rubbed raw all summer, I get reminded every day. But people still have to say it, like my body is a bulletin board for the whole school. Lily Bennett, 218 pounds. Your BMI is over the limit, so you'll need an extra

Treadman test. Does the Treadman warranty cover earthquakes? Relax, if she falls she'll bounce right back. What scared me wasn't running, it was everyone watching me run my chest would bounce my stomach would shake i'd sweat more than anyone to them every step wasn't exercise it was free entertainment don't film me it's a public

filming my workout don't be so sensitive the line fat girls hear most is don't be so they give you nicknames film your worst angles mock the way you breathe then call it a joke like if i'm not laughing first getting hurt is somehow my fault ryan stop filming she'll just I'd just go back to her dorm and eat a whole tub of ice cream over it anyway.

I didn't cry. Not because it didn't hurt. Because fat girls get laughed at for that too. They'd say I fell apart over a few words. No wonder I can't control my mouth.

Give it back. Ethan Cole? What is this, your love letter archive?